I've been awol and I'm sorry but I've been in a really strange mental space lately and I needed to turn it all off and breathe!
It may sound a bit strange but it was like I'd been so wired and stressed since March that my brain was constantly in hyperdrive and I just couldn't switch off.
I struggled to settle on TV shows. I struggled to watch movies. I struggled to read... Blogging was a chore as I couldn't find the energy to focus my brain long enough to write and I was working myself up into a right state about trying to keep on top of it as well as commenting and visits and everything else I had to do in life... So I switched it off.
If I didn't need to do something I spared no energy to even try and just saved it for the thing that I did need to do.
I was turning into a proper anxiety-ridden mess (ha! there was no 'turning') and I just needed time to reset. To be honest, I've not completely calmed tf down yet but I'm getting better...
Mental health is a funny beast sometimes.
Things are going well at the moment so I have no logical reason to be how I'm feeling but it is what it is.
My plan is to step back a bit until I have space to breathe again and see how I go with picking activities back up. Once I get my reading mojo properly back I'll know I'm back up and running! Reading used to be an escape when the world gets too much but I've found in the past couple of years that it's now one of the things that suffers most. 😞
I'll be slowly popping back up online to visit as I genuinely miss knowing what's going on with people!
I'll also be working in the background on scheduling some posts so I don't feel totally overwhelmed all the time.
I'll post my Sunday Posts and I'll have the odd previously scheduled post going live too...
Hopefully, it won't be too long before I'm back proper.
Aside from this, the career level promotion at work is officially live, the professor's new car is awesome, the new hamsters are freaking weird (and super fast!), my cats keep bringing feathers into the house and leaving them on desks and kitchen counters(!) to disturb me (luckily it's not the actual birds!) and it's a bank holiday weekend here this week so I get an extra day out of the office tomorrow. (Woo!)
In the past couple of weeks...
I love Buffy. I've wanted to read this for a while. Seeing it on the shelf in Forbidden Planet? Well, it just seemed like it was time.
We have a 'bully' romance and an 'oops I got knocked up by my boss' romance and I don't think I'm even sorry... Although, I haven't read them yet. I may be very sorry afterwards. 😆
I loved book one in this series and couldn't resist book 2 when I saw it on sale.
Anyone see the line up for RARE 2020?
It's in Edinburgh and I will be stalking the event website for tickets as soon as they're available for I'm going. Not, I want to go, but I'm going.
I'll break the refresh button on June 1st to make sure it is so.
I've never been to a convention or signing and I promised myself that I'd stop talking about it and do it. RARE 2020 is in my city, Edinburgh is where the heart is and my mum lives close by, so I'm going home and going to that signing.
Watch this space for exploding fangirl when I get my mitts on a ticket...
How could I not?
Although... I don't think either of them contributes to long-term improvements with my mental health... Endgame, in particular, left me with a so-called hangover that I'm still struggling with over a week later!