Tuesday, 16 October 2018

NaNoWriMo 2018... Why did I agree to this?!


As the title alludes, I've signed up for NaNoWriMo!
Why?
I have no bloody idea.
Truly. 
I've completely lost my mind...

I was minding my own business at work when I got chatting to one of my work friends, and colleagues, about books and that I blog about books. 
It was quite a lengthy discussion with lots of questions like, "What happens when you don't like a book?" and my answer: The same as when I like one, I state it.
She asked if I felt bad 'trashing' someone's hard work? My answer was something along the lines of I don't 'trash' anything, I just simply state all the reasons I don't like it. 
To her, it's the same thing. 

She asked if I'd ever tried to write a book and my answer was a big fat nope!
I elaborated that I wouldn't have what it takes to write a book and the conversation went something like this:

Her: Why not?
Me: I'm not a writer.
Her: You write a blog. Isn't that the same thing?
Me: You've clearly never checked out my blog. I'm not the one who writes the lovely detailed well thought out reviews... I just patter out my thoughts. I don't write well-argued discussion pieces. I don't write funny pieces... I just do whatever makes me happy but none of those things - I'd argue - would make me a writer.

She disagreed.

We moved onto NaNoWriMo and the insanity that is trying to write a first-draft (no matter how rough) of a book in a month. 
50,000 works in a month.
She bet I could do it if I applied myself to it.
I called her nucking futs. 
But, see, she's a persistent one and oddly persuasive.
Over the course of the conversation, I got backed into a corner and was issued a formal challenge. 

What was the challenge?
To undertake NaNoWriMo 2018.
I have to fully apply myself to the task, and write 50k words that resemble a story.

In short, I have to treat this like an aspiring author would treat it. 
I have to take it seriously. 

Apparently, it'll teach me more respect for the process. 
I have no idea why I agreed for I have plenty of respect for the process and for those brave souls who torture themselves and leave it all out on the page for my vicarious entertainment. 
I just don't want to be one of them! 

I think what tipped me over the edge into accepting the challenge was when I said something along the lines of there being enough aspiring authors in the world without me further clogging the pot and her responding along the lines of "imagine if JK Rowling had thought that." 
I legit almost choked to death on my tea at the very thought because... Seriously?!

But, I got her point. 
I accepted.
I will apply myself 100% to NaNoWriMo. 
I will 'gain an appreciation for the process' and sacrifice of an author... Or something like that.

The problem now is that I have to actually do it!
And I am not a writer!
Seriously, regardless of whether being a blogger makes me a writer (and for my 'style' of blogging I'm still not convinced!), it doesn't make me a novelist. 

I have no ideas.
Okay, not entirely true. I have some ideas. I mean, I AM a bookworm. My brain is always churning with some kind of fiction but I have no idea how to turn those wispy, incoherent, snatches of something into fully fleshed out ideas or how to focus on just ONE of those wispy possibilities!

I have no idea how to turn that fully fleshed idea out into a plot! 
I have no clue how to structure a story. 
I have appalling grammar.
I have hideous outbreaks of anxiety when stepping out of a comfort zone and I find it impossible to shut my brain up. (Own worst critic!)

I like reading the books not writing them!
(Her argument at this point was, "How do you know, you've never written one." Pfft.)
Being an author isn't on my to-do list! 
However, it's all irrelevant. 
I've accepted the challenge. I'll give this a try. It's an experiment. I don't need to publish anything!
I'll just write and get a tiny glimpse of the blood, sweat and tears that goes into creating something from nothing.
I can survive a couple weeks prep and a month of writing. 
(Even while moving house! Maybe?)
And heck, if nothing else it'll give me a few blog post ideas and it'll shut up Mrs persistent!

Anyway, that's a long rambling rant on NaNoWriMo.
Anyone else doing it this year? Anyone did it in the past?

For those who are interested, I've set up a separate twitter to dive into the 'community' for it felt weird having it on the blog's feed... I figure when NaNoWriMo is done, I can use it as my personal twitter, for I don't have one of those!

Now, I'm off to find an idiots guide to plotting or something.

8 comments:

  1. Good luck! Though I have to say, your friend kind of seems a bit pushy. I think most bloggers are well aware of how difficult it is to write a book and while we don't LOVE all the books, we respect the process. You don't need to write a book for that. But hey, it should be an interesting challenge, and you might find you like it! :) Can't wait to hear more. I'm thinking of doing NaNoWriMo - a friend of mine signed up and I really do want to get back into my personal writing.

    -Lauren
    www.shootingstarsmag.net

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  2. Writing a blog and writing a book are two totally different things. I tried writing a book a few years ago and I printed it out and stuck it in my closet because it was not good. lol But I wanted to do it, I did it and now I feel accomplished even if no one reads it. So I hope that you do this and feel accomplished that you made it through.

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    1. Well done Mary! I hope I feel happy that I've done it once it's done too. Right now, I'm cursing her!

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  3. I couldn't do it. It's great that you're going to give it a try, I wish all the luck.

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  4. It's great that you're giving NaNoWriMo a try. I'm watching all the sign-ups from behind my fingers wishing I had the nerve too. Best of luck to you :-)

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    1. Thanks! It's not something I'd have done if I hadn't been pushed into it, lol.

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